Sunny Side Up

Switch lives for a day

If only you knew what went on in my house. If you have seen the movie ” Into the wild” you could say my parents are alot like the parents in that film. I live in a house full of emotional abuse. I have put up with my mums manipulation and meanness for the last 12 or more years. She switches alot. One minute she’s lovely the next moment she’s telling me to get out and leave home. 

My Dad is never home. We barely have a relationship and I feel as if he hardly knows me. The times when I have tried to explain one on one to him about how Mum is when he’s not around have not helped. 

My brother and I are close. And he doesn’t understand my parents either. Esspecially Mum. Although Mum seems to be alot easier on him than she is for me.

I’m not suprised why my brother is questioning about what it is to be a christian and to believe in God.

My parents say they are both christians but don’t act like it at home at all. It even confuses me. How can someone say that they are a christian and treat there kids so so badly.  

My Mum thinks I have demons in me and has tried on many occasions to perform an excercisim on me. saying ” get out in the name of Jesus”

I find it a huge huge insult when she does this.

Not many people know what my parents are like because I have never really talked about it much. But now I am. 

I’ve grown up in a house where my parents have made me feel unloved, unworthy and depressed.

When people are around my mum is all lovely and everything. Its as if it is this big act. But know one sees what goes on behind closed doors. 

I am told by my psychologist that my parents arnt going to change and that I should try and move out of home as soon as I can.

My mum often tells me to leave home. Except I have know where to go, and I’m not earning enough at all to pay for rent. 

How can I love my parents when they are this way.